Man. Sometimes things just hit you over the head with their unexpectedness.
So an old friend from 6th grade emailed me. She saw me once, looked up my email in the student directory and contacted me. I finally found it (I don't check my UW email much). It was a cool surprise because I hadn't seen her in years. I didn't know she went to UW. So I emailed her back, she called me today and we went to dinner. It was weird/awkward/cool. We changed so much. She's a junior (she took running start, a Washington program that allows you to take community college classes in lieu of high school ones and get credit in both college and high school) though this is her first year here. We met at Terry cafe. She looked the same, but different. Heh, sixth grade isn't exactly yesterday so obviously she did. We talked some. It wasn't easy conversation, but it flowed. When you're younger, it's easy to stay friends. Who needs much in common? But now, friendships are based on more. Usually. I want to keep in touch with her. And I hope we do become friends again.
But the most unexpected thing though was during our initial conversation on the phone. I asked her about Jamie, her absolute best friend, who I also was friends with in 6th grade (we were a group) and she was like, you didn't know? She died.
And wow. Certainly a shock. Apparently, Jamie suffered from depression (I don't know how severe or mild) and so was prescribed sleeping pills by her doctor. And one time, she took double her prescription and it affect some medical problem they didn't know she had, so she died. This was in her junior year of high school.
I'm not sure what to feel. I mean, I said my goodbyes after I moved away and I haven't thought of her that much since. And now to find out she's dead is, is... unsettling to say the least. And I feel weird that I don't feel worse. I mean, I was more strongly affected by a girl I didn't know well dying. (Though I think that was because it hit that sensitive "youth mortality" spot) I'm sad, yes. Just knowing that someone I was good friends with, even only for a year died. She was a great person and I had some wonderful times with her and Spring. I wish we were able to continue our friendship after I moved, but I was young and immature, so any large distance was a death knell to an active friendship. It's just that I closed that chapter of my life, made my peace with it. So it's not like I'm missing her any more than I did before I found out. But still, she's dead. And now thinking about her more is getting me sad.
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