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Real time written: 6:31 PM

Damn figs. A large meeting is scheduled from 8-9 pm. Manditory. That means I'll miss Buffy at its regular time (though I can record it, thank goodness) and I'll have to stay up to finish a rough draft due tomorrow. Way too busy today.

My longest work day is on Tuesday. Woah. 5:30 AM is not made for waking up at. And coffee people scare me. That's what I mostly did at work. Filled the filters, brewed coffee. It was constantly like, "Kimberly refill the milk" or "Make more coffee" etc... most of the morning because people went through everything so fast. Vultures. I'd be refilling one, and another would go out. Heh, I think I almost switched the decaffinated and the regular coffee because for some reason, I thought a specific machine was decaf. But it wasn't so I realized soon in the two machines I was refilling, I couldn't tell what I put in what, so I had to throw away both filters and coffee and restart, hoping I had them right. I probably did though. No one complained or said anything. Taught me a lesson though.


::imagines Coffee people's reaction if it really had happened::


::shudders::

Reposting again, because earlier post should go earlier.

Real time written: 9:58 PM


Dude, that fig thing was such a fucking waste of time. I missed Buffy for this. I wasted so much time that could have been spent procrastinating or actually writing the essay.

And now I will waste even more time describing this because I am annoyed.


First the head guy came out, said hi, other stuff, introduced this other speaker, a professor, and said he was a great speaker.


He could speak, that is true.


He started of asking us to listen for 5 minutes, then we could space out. Already ahead of you Mr. speakerman. He made tons of implications that if you didn't listen, tried being "cool" you'd fail college or whatever.


Anyway, I heard all he said. Or most. Which doesn't at all mean I remembered all of what he said. Or most.


But he did say that he was going to be straight up. I know this because I had that damn song by Paula Abdul stuck in my head ever since..


He first brought up the story that many motivational speakers tell, how he didn't succeed when he was younger, then he gave a speech slamming America, and then a teacher told him he would succeed, or could.


He brought up how the media tells a story (I'm still not sure what that had to do with the personal statement assignment he was supposed to introduce to us) and showed us a bunch of clips to show us that we really know movie lines. Uh, okay. Why waste the effort of cutting the clips, transferring them to whatever they used to show it, when he could have just said, "Frankly, my dear..." and just left it at that. But they played five clips where we finished the phrases. Not really that hard ("Show me the money" "Bueller" "My Name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die" "You can't handle the truth!" "I see dead people") But it wasted like 15 minutes for a thing that ran late.

He talked on. Said more stuff. I'm guessing cynicism is his pet peeve or something. He went on with his annoyance with those who don't try and or waste opportunities.

Intermission2: Awww... Sniff. Tara's grave.


Damn, now I lost my train of thought. More clips now. First from Jerry Maguire, the beginning where he realizes he's a materialistic loser and the kid of the concussioned (making up words is fun) player says to him, "Fuck You" which then goes on to Jerry's personal statement.

Then somewhere the word bullshit came up, maybe something about not bullshitting around.


And so the speaker guy takes that word and runs with it. A little too far and fast. Does he think that he'll gain some kind of connection to us if he continues saying the word over and over again? Seriously, he even had a PowerPoint that said, "Lose the ability to bullshit"


I3: Hee. "The Hood?" "Beverly Hills"

Some time later, another movie clip, this time The Hurricane, the part where the imprisoned former boxer gives a speech to the courtroom about the judge and others living up to a higher principle, which is very similar to his next PowerPoint.


Finally, nearing the end, with much overtime, we watched this really "interesting" video where a guy taped people's responses to what their personal statement or mission is. And my gods, do people rehearse what they're going to say? Or are they brainwashed? So many people had the same things, to learn, to be happy, to succeed, except many said it in a really fake way. Like they really didn't mean it, but say it to look good. Then it ended. I still know close to nothing about the personal statement project that seems to be tied to a portfolio thing.


I walked home with this girl who told me her entire issue with boys and how she got in and distraction... Do I wear a sign that says "Will listen to problems?" I seem to learn about people a lot this way. I mean, it's not bad when it's someone you know and you have something invested in their friendship and you care. But when people you don't know well at all, it's like, how can I answer their questions? How do I respond when I don't even know anything about them?


Wow, that got off track.



Back to Buffy.


I really wish I didn't know what is going to happen to the girl. I should know better than to enter the Buffy chats. Old habit, I suppose. Aw. It ruined so much surprise for me. I liked this episode. Very powerful. Sad. ::sniff:: Dawn looked so sad. And that guy, the one who played Brad on Home Improvement, he’s really good at playing the evil bastard student intent on playing tricks on somewhat outcasted girls.


Thinking back on it, UPN loves to mess with people via promos. Like why show the opening scene and make it seem important? Those crazy UPN bastards. Though what’s nice about it is that even if I accidentally see the promo, I know nothing about the episode.